So much fluidity. I am not sure where it came from except being out of CCO and deciding to look ahead to what could go right and not how many ways things could go wrong.
What if I just contracted for awhile? What if I just figured it out as a process again? No an end all fixed path?
I'm broke. I just got an unexpected infusion of cash. Not much, but I keep finding bit of cash tucked in accounts. I have a tiny bit of room to breathe. And I'm clearer than ever, except I still transpose things....words....numbers....colors...sounds. "Cash" was a word that I just typed as "path". My inside brain knows why. My outside brain knows me and how to translate me and that I am not so much damaged as different. My outside brain likes my inside brain and the relationship is reciprocal.
How do I move forward? Especially when I am happier than I can remember being in so many years. In this moment, just moving from contract to contract without the burden of "should" feels so incredible in the short term in order to catch a breath and learn to laugh again.
Suddenly, I am so relaxed.
